The Job Offer

For the last few months, I have been utterly convinced that my life is going to pot and, without a Magic-8 Ball, there is little there can be little stability regarding my future. In spite of all my fretting, I got a job offer!

I have been working part-time with a non-profit agency that provides various kinds of assistance to victim's of domestic violence. I have accepted the full-time position as Victim's Advocate and will be working in surrounding communities to bring resources and advocacy to smaller towns that do not have adequate connections. I am thrilled about this opportunity and love that I get to have a job that helps people in such a direct way. And, considering it's my first job, the pay is not too shabby. Can I get an "amen" for just crossing the poverty line?!

As much as I am looking forward to the position, I have a lot of adjusting to do. What's a college girl to do with this 40+ hours a week nonsense? Then there's grownup dinners to be made, quality spouse time to be had, and exercise to be done; and, all without neglecting much needed girl time. Just call me SuperGirl.

It's my first big girl job, and it's a little intimdating. Fortunately, I've had a to go through a lot of intimidating things as of late, so I've gotten pretty good at faking it. You know, the old, "fake it til you make it" motto. It's another piece of wisdom from Mom-twentysomething. The basic idea is: regardless of fear or intimidation, just do it. ACT like you're confident, even if you're not on the inside. Everyone has to go through first of some sort, but it gets easier. Eventually, you'll start to feel on the inside what you're trying to project on the outside.

I'm still applying to graduate school, but that's still up in the air. For now, I'm just focusing on my new job and learning to have a bedtime again. That should be enough to occupy my anxious little brain for the time being. In the meantime, I am reminded of the Lord's faithfulness. Psalm 106 talks about Israel's continual unbelief and complaining. Despite what the Lord had done for them in Egypt, they "were not impressed by the Lord's miraculous deeds...they soon forgot his many acts of kindsness to them." "Even so, he saved them." From my human perspective, it is hard to remember that God holds my future. Thank God that He is faithful even when I am not.